By: Erick

Madilim na pero nasa campus pa rin kami ng tropa ko. Ang ganda kasi ng campus pag gabi, napaka presko at ang payapa. Even though there's noise from people who are playing sports at the court and students who are jamming and strumming their guitars. I see everybody's murmuring and laughing and walking. At kami andun lang nakaupo, talking about anything. Well, mostly sexual stuff lol pero paborito namin gawin yun. Ang tumambay sa campus.

I was having a great time with my friends but I can't help but to notice Brendan na nakaupo mag isa. I decided to approach him because I gotta admit, I kinda miss him. He was sitting on a bench na nasa labas ng Main building. He's listening to music while watching people pass by "Waiting for someone?" tanong ko habang umupo ako sa tabi niya.

"Uy…" Pagkagulat niya at agad agad niya inalis ang earphones sa tenga niya. "Yes, actually… 7:30pm pa kasi dismissal---"

"I didn't know you have a girlfriend." I said, interrupting him.

"Huh? "

"I saw you the other day, holding hands pa nga kayo nung babae eh."

"Ahh! Si Lenor? We're not exclusive, alam mo yun? I mean…--"

"I see. It's fine."

"Bakit? Selos ka?" Pang aasar naman niya

"What? No! Why would I?"

And then we remained quiet. Letting the wind touch our skin as we feel the connection that we have. Until he breaks the silence.

"The other night… That was awesome." He murmured and he giggled.

"May next time pa ba?" I asked, trying my very best to sound confident.

"Why not?" He turned to me and gave me the brightest smile I'v ever seen of him.

I'd really like to know him more. It would be my greatest pleasure if he would at least let me. So pikit mata kong tinanong "pwede ba tayong mag lunch bukas?"

"Are you asking me out on a date?"

"No… Maybe?" I told him as I shrug my shoulders.

"Sorry dude, pero… I don't date guys."

My jaw dropped at gusto ko nang lamunin ako ng buo ng lupa. That's… not the answer I'm quiet expecting. NOW I'M FUCKING SPEECHLESS. It was my first time to ask a guy out on a date and he'd fucking tell me that he doesn't date guys?!

"I don't date guys. I fuck guys." Pahabol niya pa.

WHAT THE FUCK?! "Woah" yan lang ang tanging lumabas sa bibig ko. Literal.

"Fun lang, no strings attached. Sounds good to you?"

"Huh?…Yeah. Oo… okay lang. No… No problem with that." I answered stuttering. I'm still staring at him as I wonder what the fuck did just happen?

"So we're fuck buddies? Deal?" sambit nya habang inabot niyang ang isang kamay niya sa'kin.

"Sure, I… I could do that." I replied as we shake hands as a sign of agreement. And I'm still trying to fully absorb what is really happening as I put on a fake smile.

"Brendan!" Kaway naman ng isang babae na tanaw ko sa malayo while she's running towards us. Her eyes are sparkling kahit gabi na and her hair was so dark as the night skies. Her skin is pale na bumagay sa pink lips niya and fluffy cheeks which makes her look like a cute innocent pure hearted girl.

"Hi!!! Kanina ka pa?" She asked with a full smile.

"Nope, kani kanina lang. Kaibigan ko pala si Rupert." Sambit naman ni Brendan

"Hello Rupert! I'm Lenor! Nice to meet you!"

"nice to meet you." Sambit ko habang iniabot ko naman ang kamay ko sa kanya.

"Sige na, una na kami Pert. Ingat ka ah!" Pagpapaalam ni Brendan habang umakbay siya kay Lenor

"Sure ingat din kayo!" I smiled"

I'm still in owe until I reached home, still thinking about what would happen next between me and Brendan as I lie on my bed. Hanggang dun lang ba kami? Fuck buddies? Hope only brings disappointment, hindi na sana ko nag expect pa ng mas higit pa dun. Isa pa, what kind of a guy who's seeing a girl tapos nakikipagtalik sa kapwa lalaki. I pity her, mukha pa naman mabait si Lenor.

"AHHH!!!" I scream caused by my frustration when someone beeped me on messenger. -Brendan Castillo sent you a message.-

"Sup, Rupert? Can I come over?"

I feel mad. I don't know why, I want something more. Something real, pero eto lang pala gusto niya so fine. I'll give you this.

"Sure… I feel horny af" I sent it and it feels like nasabi ko lang yun out of anger and pride. Fuckboy ka? Pota sige, sasabayan kita.

"You're making me hard, Pert. Stop."

"Hard ka? Fuck me hard, then."

Sineen niya lang yun and tinitigan ko yung wall clock ko. Naghihintay ako ng katok. Any minute now… 9:47… 9:48… 9:49…. 9:50… 9:51… 9:52

"Pert?" tawag ni Brendan habang tuloy tuloy ang katok niya. Wow in 6 minutes nakarating siya dito from tower 1 to tower 2. Iba talaga nagagawa ng libog.

I opened the door and without saying a word sinunggaban niya ko ng madidiin na halik at tila nadala na ko ng tensyon. Laway sa laway at dila sa dila. Naghahalikan pa lang kami at parang gusto ko na magpalabas agad. Nagmamadali kami papunta sa kama while getting off of our clothes. Tinulak niya ko at napatuwad ako sa kama. He leaned his body closer to my back and I felt his heat. We then shared a passionate kiss. He slowly rubbed his dick into my ass as he licks my back. He flipped me at kitang kita niya na ang frontal body ko. He was still standing there with his eyes starving at nakatutok pa rin ang alaga niya sa butas ko. Lumibot ang mga kamay niya sa katawan ko and he continually teases me sa pagdaan ng dila niya sa mga utong ko. Maya maya pa ay pinasubo niya sa akin ang index at middle finger niya. Nabilaukan ako dahil sobra niyang sinagad sa bibig ko at sinigurado niyang mapupuno 'to ng laway. I was sucking his fingers while he was sucking my dick. Iba talaga yung pakiramdam na hinihigop ng malalambot niyang labi ang ulo ni junior. Tumititirik talaga ang mga mata ko. Naramdaman ko ang mga daliri niyang puno ng laway ko na onti onting pumapasok sa butas ko.

"UGHHHHH!!!!!" Ungol ko habang sinasagad niya ang mga daliri niya sa loob ng katawan ko. Nilabas masok niya ang mga daliri niya sa butas ko while sucking my dick with his mouth and right hand. For fuck's sake! Ayoko ng matapos 'to!

"UGHHHH!!!! UGHHH!!! I want you inside me." I whispered
Lumuhod siya sa kama at nag doggy position kami. Dumura siya ng isa pang beses bago niya dahan dahan pinasok ang pitong pulgadang pagkalalaki niya sa butas ko. Hindi muna kami gumalaw, for a minute sinanay niya muna ko sa ganung posisyon.

"Masakit ba" he asked and I feel he's worried.

"FUCK ME!" I shouted

He started to fuck me slowly at first at habang patagal ng patagal ay bumibilis ang pag kadyot niya. I felt his tool going inside and out. It was fucking painful at habang patuloy pa rin siya ay parang nagiging masakit at masarap na. Hindi ko ma explain. Pero by that time all I want is for him to fuck me harder and faster.

"UGHHH!!! FUCK YEAAAHHHH!!! AHHHHH!!!!"
Puro ungol at tunog ng kutson ang maririnig mo sa kwarto. Kakaibang sarap at sensasyon ang naibibigay niya sakin. Para bang npupunta ko sa ibang dimensyon. He makes me feel like a rough kinky sex is all I need to live this life. I was jerking myself off nang sinabi niyang he's coming. Matapos niyang iputok sa kama ay agad rin akong nilabasan. Punong puno ng tamod ang bed sheet ko. Shit! Nakakahiya ipa-laundry, amoy na amoy 'to.

Pagod na pagod man kami ay agad kong inayos ang kama ko para makahiga kami at makapag pahinga. Habang nagpapalit ako ng bedsheet ay naghahanap naman siya ng inumin sa ref ng walang saplot. Fuck! Someday ako naman ang babarurot sa pwet na yan. Just wait.

"HOY! Sabi ko bakit ka may Empi dito? Wala pang bawas 'to oh."

I was startled at di ko napansin na kinakausap niya pala ko. "Huh? Ah nag inuman kasi kami dito last week, natira lang yan. Bakit? Gusto mo uminom?"

He thought of it for a minute and suddenly "Titimpla na kong chaser!" And then he gave me a smile at agad agad niya itong inasikaso.

Nilapag niya ang dalawang bote ng empi. Isang bawas at isang wala pang bawas. Pati na rin ang chaser na Nestea with calamnsi. Nilagyan niya pa ng asin yung baso. I know myself, pag nakainom ako hindi ko maiwasan hindi mag drama. Alam kong umiiyak lang ako pag may alak. Kaya sabi ko sarili ko I'll control myself this time. This goes for people who try their best to show everybody that everything's fine and for people who cover up their pain and sadness by their smile and jolly personalities, CHEERS!------*

I woke up with the sunlight directly to my eyes. Wala kong pang itaas at naka boxers lang ako. Pagbangon ko wala na si Brendan sa unit ko. Hilong hilo ako at ang sakit ng ulo ko. I stared at the wall at sinubukan kong alalahanin lahat ng nangyari kagabi.

*Flashback------
Sunod sunod ang shot namin ni Brendan while having a deep conversation. Hindi ko na masyadong maalala lahat pero ang alam ko lang nag laplapan kami at tawa kami ng tawa nun. Nagtatalunan kami sa kama at naghahampasan ng unan at pagkahampas niya sakin tumilapon ako sa sahig. Nag truth or dare rin kami where he asked me to use his dick as my tooth brush, which I did. I dared him to shout at the terrace na "BAKLA AKO!!!!" Which surprisingly he did. Naalala ko din na tinawagan ko ung isa kong tropa at tinatanong ko yung address ng prof naming hot na dad bod at gusto kong magpakantot. I remembered her na nandiri at nag alala. Lol. Naalala ko rin nagpa deliver kami sa McDo and he dared me to kiss the delivery guy pag binukas nito yung pinto. WHICH I DID. We did crazy things that night, and I just realized whenever I get to spend the night with him. It would always be counted as one of the best nights of my life.

We went to my bed next to each other para matulog na. I stare at the ceiling and my mind became blank. Tinignan ko si Brendan at bawat hinga niya na amoy brandy I found it somehow comforting. And tears started to fall down. Tumalikod ako kay Brendan at pinatong ko ang isang unan sa ulo ko. I cried and cried and cried. Humahagulgol ako while I was trying to pull my hair off.

"FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!" I mumbled as I felt Brendan's hand on my shoulders.

"Pert! Pert! Okay ka lang? Pert look at me!"

Hinarap ako ni Brendan and he looked at me straight in the eyes. I felt his sincerity and doon ko lang nakita ang mukha niya na sobrang seryoso.

"Pert! Ano nangyari?"

"I want my mom! Please…. I want my mom! Give me back my mom!" I cried as I continue to have a mental breakdown.

He wrapped me around his arms and I felt his warm mouth on my head at pinatahan niya ko. It was the most comforting thing I've ever experienced in my whole life. It feels like ayoko nang umalis sa pagkakayap ni Brendan sa'kin. I feel safe and for a moment I felt like home.
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Nagulat ako nang biglang bumukas ang pinto. "Good morning! Gising ka na pala." Bati ni Brendan habang papasok siya sa unit na may dala dala.

"Uy! Akala ko umalis ka na…"

"Oh! Bumili ako ng coffee sa Frigoli. Para sa hang over." He laughed habang pinatong niya ito sa table. "Di ko alam anong gusto mong flavor so cappuccino na lang." He cheerfully smiled at inabot ang kape sa'kin sa kama. We sat at my bed, drinking coffee quietly.

"My mom." I mumbled as I show him a photo of her in my wallet. "She died…. uhm… 2 years ago."

"Sorry for your lost. It must have been hard for you talking about it."

"Nah, okay lang… and thank you. Thank you kagabi and dito sa kapeng mainit. Hahaha"

"I had fun last night. I really did" he said as he giggled."

"I never cried in front of anyone. Ayokong nakikita ng tao yung vulnerable side ko eh. But you did see it, kagabi. Pero last na yon!" I said, laughing. "Anyway… can I ask you something?"

"Ano yon?"

"Can we be friends?"

"Parang gago 'to, oo naman."

It was a relief to know na okay naman pala siya na magkaibigan kami. "So friends with benefits?" I smiled.

"Friends with benefits… Hmm.. pwede." he smiled back as we shake hands and did an agreement for the second time. I'm young and I still have a lot of time to explore my sexuality. Siguro I don't need love to be a top priority in my life right now. Sex na lang muna, lol just kidding. I never knew sex could be a foundation of friendship, though.

But for us, it was.