By: Mark

Hi guys! Sorry for being inactive for the whole month of November 2016. I did not share the part 4 last month because I was preparing for our finals this December. Of course as a graduating college student I need to finish all the projects, assignments, reports etc. so here is the story.

After we ate in a restaurant, we went to my home. Ryan was with me hehe. But before that, we went to a convenience store to buy a Franzia (wine). Yep, we know that we already drunk wine while we were in restaurant but we wanted to drink more wine when we are home.

I just want to past forward all the events in the year of 2013,2014 and 2015. But i will share some notable memories in that years. In 2013, during our 2nd year college life, me and Ryan were so busy yet we don't have enough time to meet and to talk each other. I was so busy that time because even though I'm 2nd year college that year, there's so many reports and projects to be pass. I was still thankful to Ryan because he understand my reason. But, I remembered there was a time that Ryan and me felt so very unhappy because we don't have enough time to meet each other. Because we were busy that time, minsan nalang talaga kami magsama at magusap. Kahit text or fb wala ng communication. Even in our school during break, we don't see each other. Ewan ko ba bakit ganun. Pero makalipas ang ilang mga buwan nagka ayos nakami at bumalik ulit sa dati. In the year 2014 and 2015, medyo okay pa pero syempre hindi pa rin maiiwasan yung tampuhan. Tyaka pala simula nung 3rd year college nakami sa bahay namin siya nakatira pero umuuwi pa rin siya sa kanila.

Our both parents don't know that we are a couple. Syempre, dahil sa sobrang strict ng mga parents namin talagang magagalit talaga sila. Tyaka alam naman natin na super strict yung mga chinese. In the

In the year 2015, (summer) we went to Boracay island together with our college friends. We are all boys and kami lang yata ni Ryan ang mag couple. Hindi naman sa pagiging boastful pero lahat talaga kaming magkakaibigan (bali 6 kami) talagang pogi. Of course, we explored boracay that time. We drunk and dance and went to a club. That night, we back to hotel. Bali sama sama kami sa iisang room kasi 5 beds naman yun kesa naman sa magrent pa kami ng isa pa tyaka 6 lang naman kami.
So katabi ko sa kama si Ryan (as usual). Tapos si David (his real name) and Benj were on the same bed. Then two also were on the same bed. Naglasing kami that time. Wala kaminh usapan about anything like sex. But we know naman each other na we're still a virgin lol hahahaha but they don't know that me and Ryan are not. Actually, my friends don't know that me and Ryan are a couple. Basta they only that we are bestfriends.

Dahil nga nabobored kaming anim, gusto muna nilang mamasyal sa labas. But kaming dalawa ni Ryan ay naiwan sa room. Alam ko aroung 11:40pm pa yun. Yung pagka alis nilang apat, sinabi sakin ni Ryan na kung gusto ko daw magshower together with him. So yun pumayag nako. Pagpasok namin sa bathroom, agad agad naghubad kami. Of course, nakita ko na naman ang junior ni babe hehehehe. Fuck!!! Wala nakong masabi talaga. I asked him na kung pwede namin gawin yung hobby naming dalawa (alam nyo na yun hahaha). So ayun pumayag naman siya but naligo muna kami. After namin maligo di na muna kami nagbihis. Ni lock muna namin ang pinto to make sure na walang makakapasok at para alam namin na hindi agad makakapasok yung mga kaibigan namin. Pinunasan muna namin ang aming katawan.

Ryan: "Babe are you ready?"
Me: "Of course baby, and it's been a long time since we had sex lol"

Nagkiss muna kami ni Ryan yun laplapan na this!!!! puta ang sarap talaga niya super. Habang nagkikiss kami bigla akong nakaramdam ng init sa aking katawan. Yung tipong ang init tapos may halong excitement at gigil hahahaha. "Babe pasok muna please fuuckk ughh ughh!!!" Sabi ko sa kanya.
"Osge babe magready ka na." Sabi naman niya.
Pinasok na nya ang kanyang junior sa aking butas. Tangina talaga ang sarap tanging ungol lang namin dalawa ang nagpapaingay pati mura.
"Fuuuuuckk!! Sge pa baby UGH UGH UGH!!! Sarap mo talaga!!" Sabi ko.
"Babe malapit na!! Ughh ughhh!!!!" Sabi naman nya. After ilang mins, nilabasan na siya. Then jinakol nya ako. Then chupa hanggang nilabasan nako.

Habang nagsesex kami ni Ryan, may bigla ngang kumatok. Nung una hindi namin pinansin pero nung sa susunod, may isang lalake ang nagsalita ng "Sir." Hindi familiar samin yung boses pero we thought that the one who was knocking the door in our room was one of the crew in the hotel. So nagbihis kami ni Ryan and I opened the door.

Tama nga ang hinala namin na crew siya sa hotel. He asked kung saan daw yung apat naming kasama. So I answered na nasa labas lang sila. So ayun umalis na yung crew.

Maaga kami nagising dahil maaga yung flight namin pauwi ng Manila.

Fast forward……..

Basta the previous years, may mga time na nagkakatampuhan kami ni Ryan pero nagiging ok din kami. Nagtour din kami sa Hongkong and South Korea and nagout of town din kami during sembreak and holidays.

January 2016 — Ito na yata ang pinakamalungkot at pinakamasakit na nangyari saming dalawa. We were a couple for more then 4 years na. Nagchange siya ng school which is DLSU. Because nagkatampuhan kami dahil ilang weeks akong hindi nagparamdam sa kanya even chat, text or call man lang. I don't know to myself kung bakit. Basta ayoko muna siyang kausapin at makita. He texted me even called me. Pero di ko sinasagot. He even went to our house pero sinasabi ko sa yaya namin na wala ako. Nag-iwan siya ng letter sa mailbox namin. I received it. He said,"Baby bakit hindi mo sinasagot ang mga texts at calls ko sayo? You don't even want to see me. Etc…." Nalungkot ako nun. Parang gusto ko ng magpakamatay dahil nababaliw na ata ako. Nagtatampo ako sa kanya na hindi ko lang alam kung bakit. At kung hindi ako nagkakamali everytime I saw our pictures together parang nandidiri nako.

Dahil parang nagiging straight nako. I decided na makipag break kay Ryan. Pero I thought paano na yung mga promise ko sa kanya? Paano na lahat yung mga pinagsamahan namin? Ewan ko ba kung bakit ko ginagawa to. I don't even go to school for more than 3 weeks. Naglasing ako nagkulong sa bahay. Pero nung January 27,2016 natauhan ako. Bigla kong naalala lahat ng mga nangyari samin ni Ryan. Kaya after 3 weeks, I called him. I said sorry to him at kung pwede mapatawad niya ako. I explained lahat ng mga nangyari. And I'm still thankful na he forgave me.

Para sa mga magcouple na hindi pa alam ng iba na gay at couple sila, don't be afraid. Ipaglaban niyo lang ang nararamdaman niyo. Huwag nalang pansinin ang mga sinasabi ng iba.

Itutuloy…..